In my dream we make jelly donuts on the bakery floor and each worn surface of the painted wooden box I hold tells the story of a family displaced from the neighborhood. I’ve had it for so long.

In my dream I explain to my  co-passengers in the elevator that I can’t help them because I no longer know the players in San Francisco’s gallery scene. Dusk is coming on quickly.

In my dream I look in the mirror and see that I’ve grown my hair back out over my ears and dyed it black and purple. My eyeshadow is black and grainy and satisfying.

In my dream we are in the dining hall and L, bottomless, moves against my hand with frank desire. It’s been decades since we’ve been in the same room and I’m surprised by how well I know their body and how little we care about those around us.

In my dream we examine the car before turning to the white washed walls in the grove.

In my dream I note with approval the block of store fronts on both sides of the avenue. I look at their over painted facades, windows crammed with thirty year old bric-a-brac, the hollowed out second stories and think “I could live here”. I try to remember the location: 10th Avenue and 38th.

In my dream I hold my robe and regalia in front of me,trying to find a place in the busy subway station to put it on and cover my nakedness. I open a bland painted door and slip inside to find the meeting hall of loners with its rough benches and good cheap pastries. I dress and am home, welcomed by these drifting nocturnal geniuses.

In my dream there was a blur of plants near the ramp and a feeling of disagreement.

In my dream we’ve written on an animal.

In my dream I return to the black rental car to find the back door ripped off and on the curb. D and I struggle to press it back into place. I had been sleeping in there. Now I don’t know.