Archive for September 30th, 2008
I notice that when I go to describe my days, and I’m not thinking much, I often use the term “odd”. I just stopped myself from doing this in relation to my weekend, when I caught myself and asked what was so odd about it? The answer that surfaced was that it wasn’t very “productive”. Another fuzzy word that says little when I use it. What does a “productive” day look like for me, anyhow? What am I supposedly producing? Truth is it’s a term that implies that there is some other life I’m supposed to be living.
But what about the one I am living? The weekend was filled with time spent in the presence of friends, primarily my friend Judie; stellar painter, wicked commenter, a woman brimming with emotion and honesty. Our mutual history stretches back 24 years. We’ve seen each other through many incarnations and relationships. And this weekend we just naturally fell into a series of conversations that went to the core of who we are and what we think. Those talks contained the shock of recognition and reminder of what a profound thing friendship is. We saw Morandis at the Met, Victorian interior watercolors at the Cooper Hewitt, Had Malaysian Chicken and Pork jerky, sniffed perfume together at Barney’s and marveled at the shoes in Christian Louboutin shoes in his Madison Avenue shop.We were teary at times, and cackling at others. When we said goodbye it was with forgiveness for how little we’d been in touch since the last time, and hopes that we’ll do better this time. I know that even if we don’t, it’ll still be alright.
In the midst of that I saw Chris, and ended up not seeing Thor, in part because I bought a new cellphone and couldn’t quite figure it out. Yesterday I got to spend a lovely while with postmaudlin, who is staying in my neighborhood while visiting from the West Coast. More laughs, more reminiscence and Lehigh received the adoration she deserves.
What does all of this produce? Nothing but feelings of contentment and enthusiasm in me. And that’s the kind of “productive” that I should be valuing more.
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