How is it that I can barely write?
And how is it that I’m constructing another post out of that feeling of inability?
How is it that sitting at my desk with my browser open on the desktop machine is too distracting, but sitting hunched over my laptop here in bed in the worst ergonomic position is not?
Have I been reading too much internet SEO propaganda?
Remember how Mondays used to be my day for therapy?
Why am I feeling so stalled out on working on my site?
What steps would I have to take to identify what my website is about?
Is it a record of my previous creativity? A marketing tool? (Marketing what?)
Is it a platform for my current creativity? (Creating what?)
Should I apply the same lessons about creativity to it that I do to my other work?
What is the deeper meaning of distraction? Does it always have a deeper meaning, or is it just a result of neurology and software choice?
Should I make an effort to produce distraction free working conditions? What would they look like?
Why is it that I find the current set of associations my mind wanders between to be particularly unsatisfying?
Is it because they are shallow? Circular? Inconclusive?
Do we arrive at a point in life where conclusion is moot, because we no longer act on conclusions we have reached?
Is the striving for conclusion then simply a left over habit that has outlived its usefulness?
Is it possible to proceed out of acceptance, and still feel like there is progress?
Is an atomized conciousness enough?
Am I distracting myself from an unpleasent feeling or idea I don’t want to confront?
What am I angry about?
When I think of answering that question why does my mind go to the phrase ‘Can I draw it out?’, meaning can I expose it through the act of drawing, but of course falling into a pop-Freudian punning?
Is it that simple?
Is it all a trail of breadcrumbs?
Why would anyone else want to read this?
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