I started the day near tears and I seem to be ending it in distraction. Why is everything around the job so very confused and upsetting? And why am I letting my blog turn into a middling drama dump? I’ve been drowning myself in online info, to deal with my own conflicted feelings about getting… Continue Reading
Tag Archives: emotions
Go elsewhere…
Tried once again to solve the problem of wifi collapse on the eeepc: I got my hands on a dvd drive and did a system restore back to the factory original settings. No go – which leads me to conclude that it is indeed a hardware problem, not a software one. It looks like I… Continue Reading
Adressed to the day that just passed…
Yesterday, you were not my favorite day, combining as you did crushing deadlines, bad news, missed chances and cascading data loss. Oh, and I got fatter. And I didn’t get home until way too late. And things got misplaced. All in all a day of bad communication and ouchiness. Today, you’ve been just marginally better,… Continue Reading
Please may I have another twenty?
This morning’s dream involved Dennis Cooper telling me about the fantastic rents he was getting from a tenant on some Los Angeles industrial space. Yesterday I stopped in at an art opening in Chinatown, too early to see D, but in time to feel hemmed in by the crowd, and thus shy. In a way,… Continue Reading
A decision, of sorts…
I’m being offered exciting additional responsibility in my life. I’ve spent a full weekend having some serious meltdown about everything that I’m currently committed to. It’s affecting my emotions and my health, and so I’m going to take the excellent advice that some of you have offered me in the past: I’m going to let… Continue Reading
Look backlook ahead…
I’ve been trying to write this entry for a couple of hours now and it’s taken a gentle inquiry from a friend to get me to realize what’s been the stopping point: part of me is still very involved in processing what was a very intense weekend experience that led immediately into some new challenges… Continue Reading
Holiday blab…
And I could use some serious decompression. I need to crawl into a bed and spend a couple of days there, soup inclusive. MMMMmmmm soup. I took a quick jaunt over to Chelsea today to make sure I caught a couple of shows before they closed. Now to finish up a couple of things in… Continue Reading
Flash your frustration Friday…
Ready to kill him, really. Tags: daily photo, emotions
Splat…
All a sputter. So much to do. It’sbeen so oddly emotional the past couple of days. I’m being offered chances to think about myself in expanded ways, and the prospects are frightening. So much so that I am neglecting things on the ground. Abandoning habit, turning distraction after distraction loose in my mind. I know… Continue Reading
Landmark…
Monday therapy-esque ramblings once again, like a twinge from a phantom limb. At some point today went south for me. I maybe it was the onset of the rain, the sense that i was returning to the work week without a clear achievement to point to, or a more general feeling of disconnectedness. I started… Continue Reading