In my dream there is one constant through the long night of wet street fights, department store wandering and comic picking: the hunt for slabs of sticky, succulent char siu in an aged yellow shop.

In my dream it would be easy enough to leave the building as long as I could get past the singular shaft with its swinging metal door and greased, curved wall. Then I’m on the carpeted floor again and holding the little old dog.

In my dream I see C in the middle of the crosswalk in the street festival and when I walk up and stand next to him I see the painted look cross his face. It’s been too long and I should have done it before. We chat and he turns away. His cap is white.